Britney Spears has ‘apologised’ for ‘pretending to be OK’ (Picture: @britneyspears, Instagram)
Britney Spears has spoken out for the first time since making shocking revelations at her conservatorship court hearing.
The Toxic singer shared an Instagram post on Thursday addressing the controversy surrounding the case.
During the hearing, Britney described the conservatorship as ‘abusive’, called out her father Jamie Spears and said she was ‘depressed’ while pleading with the judge to end the order.
In her latest heartfelt post, the pop star told fans: ‘I just want to tell you guys a little secret ? … I believe as people we all want the fairy tale life and by the way I’ve posted … my life seems to look and be pretty amazing … I think that’s what we all strive for !!!!
‘That was one of my mother’s best traits … no matter how s****y a day was when I was younger … for the sake of me and my siblings she always pretended like everything was ok. I’m bringing this to peoples attention because I don’t want people to think my life is perfect because IT’S DEFINITELY NOT AT ALL … and if you have read anything about me in the news this week ? … you obviously really know now it’s not !!!!’
She continued: ‘I apologize for pretending like I’ve been ok the past two years … I did it because of my pride and I was embarrassed to share what happened to me … but honestly who doesn’t want to capture there Instagram in a fun light ???♀️ !!!!
‘Believe it or not pretending that I’m ok has actually helped … so I decided to post this quote today because by golly if you’re going through hell … I feel like Instagram has helped me have a cool outlet to share my presence … existence … and to simply feel like I matter despite what I was going through and hey it worked … so I’ve decided to start reading more fairy tales ??♀️? !!!!!’
The Oops… I Did It Again singer included a quote from Albert Einstein that read: ‘If you want your children to be intelligent, read them fairy tales.
‘If you want them to be more intelligent, read them more fairy tales.’
Britney, 39, finally got to address the court directly on Wednesday after spending 13 years under the strict conservatorship rules.
She was placed under the order in 2008 at the height of her mental health struggles, with a court putting her father, Jamie, in control of her personal affairs and finances indefinitely.
During her testimony, the singer detailed her desperate situation and said: ‘After I’ve told the whole world I’m okay, it’s a lie. I’m not happy and I can’t sleep. I’m depressed. I cry everyday … It’s my wish and dream for all of this to end. I want my life back.
‘I’ve been in denial. I’ve been in shock. I am traumatised. I want to end the conservatorship without having to be evaluated. I truly believe this conservatorship is abusive.’
She also revealed that she has a contraceptive intrauterine device (IUD) in her body that she wants to remove so she can get pregnant and have a baby with boyfriend Sam Asghari. However, she claims she has been unable to visit the doctor due to her conservatorship.
Since the hearing, Britney has been overwhelmed with support from other celebrities, with the likes of Mariah Carey, Cher and Sarah Jessica Parker joining the #FreeBritney movement.
Her ex-boyfriend, Justin Timberlake, also spoke out against the conservatorship.
Another hearing is expected to take place in July regarding Britney’s request to end the order without evaluation.