Chrissy Teigen has opened up about her body’s changes since the death of her baby boy Jack, as she continues to deal with feeling ‘diabolically sad’.
The former Sports Illustrated model suffered a miscarriage on September 30, 2020 with son Jack, who would have been her third child with husband John Legend.
As the first anniversary approaches, Chrissy shared a vulnerable post explaining how her body has had to adapt since Jack’s death, alongside a photo of her taking a selfie on the floor of her walk-in closet.
She wrote: ‘It’s really weird when you lose a baby and your body gets paused in time. usually you’d gain your “yumyums I’m praaaagnant!” weight, then put on the weight of your little bebe.
‘Then, ideally, you’d have your baby. And you would feed it from your boobs and your body would know to charge through and do what it does to get you back into fighting shape, whatever that may be, for however long it takes (F**K a snap-back)…
‘But man. When you lose a baby halfway through, your body just pauses. It has nothing to do. No one to feed. And you’re just…stuck. Stuck with saggy boobs that were prepping to be milk bags, a belly that was ready to bake. I would be lying if I said this did not majorly suck.’
Chrissy, 35, explained how she still feels ‘extremely, diabolically sad at what could have been’, and has to face a daily reminder of Jack’s death every time she looks in the mirror.
‘I don’t really have a big ending or positive words lol,’ she admitted. ‘And don’t say nice things!! I know I know I promise. I know it’s not everything and I know i’m suuuuuch a badass and blah blah blah I just thought I’d be emo for a minute ok! I love you. f**k a scale!’
Chrissy was flooded with messages of support from her fans and celebrity friends, with Paris Hilton commenting: ‘You are beautiful inside and out.’
Brooklyn Decker added: ‘Ugh the pain that keeps on giving. We love you.’
Chrissy was applauded for sharing her miscarriage ordeal so publicly, including posting photos of herself crying in hospital after Jack had been delivered.
She had been taken to hospital after experiencing heavy bleeding but, just hours later, was told by doctors that there was nothing they could do to save her baby boy.
The TV presenter has sought to change her lifestyle over the past year and recently celebrated 50 days of sobriety.
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