Kate Lawler struggled to open up to her fiancé about her depression (Picture: Instagram/Mega)
Kate Lawler has admitted she found it difficult to speak to her fiancé about her depression after having a baby and experienced moments of resentment towards him.
The Virgin Radio presenter, 41, became a mother for the first time in February as she and Martin ‘Boj’ Bojtos welcomed their daughter Noa after a difficult birth.
Kate revealed that she ended up in the ‘darkest place’ after her baby was born, telling The Sun’s Fabulous magazine: ‘He really wanted to be a dad and there was a little bit of worry there for him in the beginning, thinking that he’d made me do this. Like: “Goodness, she’s going to blame me for this…”
‘And yeah, I definitely had thoughts of resentment, moments where I thought to myself: “Why did I let him convince me this would be a good idea? Why did we do this?”’
She added that she used to question him on whether he knew it would be as hard as it was having a newborn and whether he thought it would be as ‘bad’ as they initially found it.
The couple’s daughter was rushed to intensive care after her birth due to breathing issues, which Kate updated fans about at the time.
Kate has been open about how she has been coping since becoming a mum (Picture: Instagram)
‘There were times where I could tell he felt broken too, and I felt like he hated me because I was being so down,’ she says.
‘And I was afraid to tell him how depressed I was. Having a baby really does put pressure on your relationship.
‘But thankfully Boj is nothing like me! He’s so calm and he’s got more patience. He has been my rock.’
Kate added that her ‘heart melts’ now when she sees Boj with Noa, admitting she doesn’t think she would ‘be here now if wasn’t for him’.
She says her employers at Virgin Radio were very supportive and understanding of her need to take longer than the 12 weeks of maternity leave that she had planned and urged other mothers to speak out if they needed help.
‘I know that there are going to be loads of mums and expectant mums reading this, and if you’re finding it hard to talk to someone, don’t do what I did and keep it inside. Talk to people about your struggles. Please don’t hide away.’
Kate Lawler’s full interview is in this week’s Fabulous magazine.
Credit: Original article published here.