Former Atomic Kitten star Kerry Katona has recalled the moment she had to sit her children down and explain her past drug use after they saw footage of her taking cocaine in a tabloid.
The singer has been incredibly honest about her past struggles, after she began taking drugs aged 14 with her mother, but this week spoke about seeing her past detailed in a documentary she was watching alongside her kids.
In 2009, the News Of The World published photographs and video footage of the then-28-year-old mother allegedly showing her snorting the class A drug in her home in Wilmslow, Cheshire, which was documented in her 2010 documentary, Kerry Katona: Coming Clean.
Kerry – who has five children, Molly, 19, and Lilly-Sue, 17, with Brian McFadden; Heidi, 13, and Maxwell, 12, with Mark Croft, and Dylan-Jorge, six, with the late George Kay – explained on the Hot Mess Mums podcast of the moment she watched the documentary with her two eldest daughters.
She said: ‘I had kids and continued to do drugs and it’s something I’m not proud of, but I’m really blessed my kids didn’t have a clue.
I had this documentary come out, a 90-minute special…where they showed the News of the World video of me snorting the coke…and I sat down Molly and Lily and I said “I’m gonna show you something now and I want you to watch it because it’s coming out and you’re going into school and people are going to be saying things to you, and I just want you to realise this isn’t your mummy anymore and anything you want to ask me, ask me”.’
She continued: ‘At the end of it, they were like “when did all this happen…you’ve been living this secret life, why didn’t you tell us?” [I said] “because I’m the mum, these aren’t your problems” and that’s where I’m different with my mum.’
Kerry went on to detail the kind of comments and trolling her children get, saying she feels bad they ‘suffer’ from mistakes she’s made in the past, or perceptions others may hold of her.
She said: ‘My children still get comments all the time, “your mums a coke head”, “your mums on OnlyFans”, I only get my tits out, I started off as a page three model so what difference. I have to always remind my kids that they know who I am, and they have to stay strong, and I do feel bad that they suffer from my mistakes, but not that I’m glad, but they have become so strong from it.’
Adding that humour is her ‘defense mechanism’, Kerry insisted if she’s knocked down she ‘won’t be down for long’.
Kerry has spoken in the past about how her children have saved her at her lowest points – with the reality star getting their names tattooed on her wrists to stop her taking her own life.
The star, who said she began taking drugs to ‘fill a void of loneliness’ said: ‘I will say, if it wasn’t for my kids, I would’ve done something stupid to myself.
‘For years I would say it was Brian’s fault for leaving me, my mums fault, my accountant’s fault for taking all my money, but at some point, you have to own it. You have to move on and accept it and share your story and help others.’
The full Hot Mess Mums podcast with Kerry is available now.