Adele has admitted she felt ‘devastated and embarrassed’ when the news about the breakdown of her marriage became public knowledge.
The chart-topper has opened up about the ‘tsunami of emotions’ following her divorce from husband Simon Konecki in 2019, revealing she had been left bed-bound with anxiety.
In a wide-ranging interview with Rolling Stone magazine ahead of the release of her highly-anticipated comeback album, Adele, 33, spoke of everything from her father’s death to her fake Instagram and Twitter accounts (That everyone is now actively searching for).
In a sombre moment, the singer admitted she had ‘never really felt present’ in a happy home with her family.
She told the music publication that ‘having so many people, that I don’t know, know that I didn’t make that work … it f***ing devastated me.
‘I was embarrassed,’ she admitted. ‘No one made me feel embarrassed, but you feel like you didn’t do a good job.’
The Grammy winner admitted she suffered ‘an intense few weeks of bed-bound anxiety’ following the split, but turned a corner the day of her 31st birthday in May 2019.
‘I felt quite hopeful,’ Adele said.
‘It was the first time I felt I’d had a really nice evening and I was OK being in the house and going to bed on my own. I was not excited, but I was looking forward to the next day.’
But when the next day came, the Easy On Me singer awake to see ‘this tsunami of emotions’ coming towards her, and realised ‘this is going to be really f***ing up-and-down’.
Adele spoke openly about distracting herself from the emotional difficulty that came with the divorce and explaining it to her young son Angelo.
She threw herself ‘head first’ into everything to soothe her anxiety, including travelling ‘anywhere where there’s meant to be brilliant energy’.
The Rolling In The Deep singer also addressed her weight loss and healthier lifestyle, and said she wanted to prove that ‘if I can transform my strength and my body like this, surely I can do it to my emotions and to my brain and to my inner well-being. That was what drove me.
‘It just coincided with all of the emotional work that I was doing with myself as a visual for it, basically.’
Adele is currently doing a range of interviews to promote her long-awaited new album, 30.
The record will be released on November 19 and is expected to explore her separation from husband Simon and her relationship with her young son, Angelo.
The album’s lead single, Easy On Me, was released last month and, unsurprisingly, rocketed straight to the top of the charts.
A two-hour special, which features an interview with Oprah Winfrey and performance of some of Adele’s new tracks, will be broadcast on CBS on Sunday night.
An ITV concert to launch the album in the UK, recorded at the London Palladium, will air on November 21.