Danielle Lloyd was brought in to speak with the directorial team on Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins after an emotional cave descent.
The famous group had to hang from the air and plunge down into the base of a cave, which proved too much for the 39-year-old TV star.
The former Miss Britain continued to explain why she had such a strong reaction to the SAS challenge, wondering if she was psychologically capable of coping.
Danielle, a mother of five, said she was giving it her best but didn’t appreciate feeling out of control as she did throughout the challenge.
During her conversation with the two directorial staff members, the former beauty model burst into tears as she admitted to been beaten in prior relationships.
Her aggressive ex, who she had been dating for ‘three or four years,’ punched her in the eye socket as she tried to flee.
Danielle confessed: ‘I’ve been in really controlling relationships, I was really young, naive. My boyfriend at the time almost segregated from the family.
‘There’d be days where I was locked in the house and I wasn’t allowed out. For a long period of time i’d be beaten up every day.’
She informed the DS that the connection lasted three or four years, and she was unable to leave because she began to feel it was “normal.”
The Celebrity Big Brother star stated that it wasn’t until her mother intervened that she got the courage to leave because she felt she ‘earned’ it.
In order to increase Danielle’s self-esteem, her mother entered her in Miss England, which she won in 2004.
Danielle continued through floods of tears: ‘My boyfriend didn’t like it and when I tried to break up with him, he punched me so hard in the face that he knocked me out and broke my eye socket.’
Her stunning statement stunned even the DS, as she added that going to London to be free didn’t solve anything.
The model began using drugs and alcohol to avoid ‘dealing’ with problems, heartbreakingly admitting: ‘I ended up wanting to take my own life because i couldn’t take it anymore.’
Composing herself, Danielle added: ‘It was hard and I feel like now I’ve come through the other side and want to prove I can get through this.’
‘Everything that’s happened has made me stronger and I can’t put up with that again, especially for my kids.’
Celebrity SAS: Who Dares Wins airs on Sundays at 9pm on Channel 4.
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