Kim spoke after her divorce from Kanye earlier this year (Picture: E! Entertainment )
The reality star spoke candidly about the relationship, revealing that her mindset changed when she turned 40 last October.
Kim filed for divorce from the Gold Digger rapper in February, six years after they tied the knot.
She opened up about her experiences in the last ever episode of the show, saying she has been in therapy since the divorce was filed.
Kim spoke about ‘waking up at 40 and realising I just want total happiness’, telling mum Kris Jenner that she was ‘figuring out how to get there.’
‘I just feel like I’ve worked so hard in life, to achieve everything that I wanted to, and I’ve lived up to my expectations and achieved 10 times more than I even thought was humanly possible,’ she said. ‘But I don’t have a life to share that with. I do, obviously, my kids and everything, but am I just gonna sit here and think, “Okay, my kids fulfill me, and I’m good?”’
Kim went on to say: ‘I never thought I was lonely. I always thought that’s totally fine. I could just have my kids. My husband moves from state to state. And I just am on this ride with him. And I was okay with that.
‘Then after turning 40 this year, I realised, “No, I don’t want a husband that lives in a completely different state to me.” I thought, “Oh my God, that’s when we’re getting along the best.” But that is sad to me and that’s not what I want.’
Speaking honestly, Kim added: ‘I want someone that we have the same shows in common. I want someone that wants to work out with me. Every single day Khloe and Tristan and I would work out at 6am and I was third wheeling it for a good eight months in quarantine. I was so envious of that.’
She went on to say: ‘I was like, “Wow, it’s the little things I don’t have.” I have all the big things. Yeah, I have the extravagant [things], everything you could possibly imagine. I’m grateful for those experiences.’
She added: ‘But I think I’m ready for the smaller experiences that I think will mean a lot. I just want you to be happy and joyful.’
Kim and Kanye were married in a lavish ceremony in Italy in 2014, with scenes from their big day playing out on Keeping Up With The Kardashians.
After some difficult months, the businesswoman filed divorce papers at the beginning of the year, with the musician later offering his legal response and reportedly agreeing to her request for joint custody.
It comes after the penultimate episode of the show featured footage of Kim breaking down to sisters Kourtney, Kendall and Kylie Jenner, over the state of their marriage, saying she ‘feels like a f**king failure’.
Keeping Up With The Kardashian is available to stream on hayu.
Credit: Original article published here.