Selling Sunset star Maya Vander penned an emotional Christmas message to fans in her first update since sharing the heartbreaking news of her stillbirth earlier this month.
The reality show favourite, 38, recently shared the devastating news with fans that she had suffered a stillbirth, after confirming she was expecting her third child earlier this year.
A stillbirth is when a baby is born dead after 24 completed weeks of pregnancy.
In her her first update since announcing the news, the star told fans Christmas Eve would’ve marked the day their baby was due to return home.
The real estate agent posted a festive snap alongside her husband and two children, as they prepared to spend Christmas at home together.
As she reflected on the very difficult period, Maya admitted in the caption: ’This is not the Christmas Eve I had envisioned.
‘This was the day Mason would have come home with us. It’s been two weeks since I lost my child.
‘I am smiling in the photo but I got to tell you, it’s been difficult. I never experienced grief this way.
‘Our family is taking it one day at a time and we are just trying our best for the kids.
I am extremely grateful for all the kindness and messages I have been getting. We are thankful for our children and know that it will be ok…
She went on to share her desires for another child in the future, adding: ‘I want to wish all of you happy holiday season! I hope and have faith that after the storm comes the [rainbow emoji].’
The term rainbow baby is often used to describe a child who is born after their mother has experienced a miscarriage, stillborn, or neonatal death.
Maya’s Selling Sunset co-stars sent their love in the comments, along with hundreds of fans who gave their well wishes.
Chrishell Strayse commented: ‘You are so loved. Praying for so many rainbows for you and your family
Heather Rae Young added: ‘Love you miss you, with Amanza writing: ‘I love you dearly.’
Davina Potratz replied: ‘Love you so much!! Happy Holidays.’
Maya broke the difficult news to fans by posting a photo on Instagram of a memory box, as she shared the name she and her husband had decided for their baby.
She wrote: ‘Yesterday was the hardest day of my life. I had a still birth at 38 weeks.
‘I always heard of it but never imagined I’ll be part of the statistics. Instead of delivering a baby, I get to go home with a memory box… I do not wish this on anyone.
‘What was a regular weekly checkup turned into a nightmare that I never imagine will happen to me.
‘Given I share my pregnancies in the show I knew I’ll have to post about this and avoid the “when is your due date“ question.
She added: ‘You will always be in our heart Mason Miller.’
Maya already shares children Aiden, two, and a daughter, Elle, one, with her husband, after fans got to see her journey through her previous pregnancies on the show too.
Selling Sunset seasons 1-4 can be streamed on Netflix now.
Sands UK charity
Sands UK is a stillbirth and neonatal death charity, which works to reduce the number of babies dying and to ensure that those affected by the loss of a baby receives the best possible care for as long as they need it.
The charity aims to better understand the causes of baby deaths and works with governments and other organisations to raise awareness of issues surrounding baby loss.
Sands provides bereavement support at a local and national level.
Please visit the Sands UK website for more information and contact details.