Molly-Mae Hague has made an emotional comeback to YouTube, revealing she has been ‘overwhelmed’ every day since the arrival of her newborn girl Bambi in January, and sharing her frustration at not being able to make the video she had planned.
The former Love Island star, 23, also confessed that she suffered from terrible constipation for nine days after Bambi was born, pleading with her sister to call an ambulance because she was in so much agony.
‘I just feel like there is so much to say and there is so much to discuss and talk about, that I feel like I literally don’t even know where to start,’ she said to camera.
Molly admitted that she sat down and taped for two hours but felt like she wasn’t being herself.
‘I feel like I’m questioning everything I’m saying, I’m thinking, “Oh my God, what are people going to think if I say that?” because I’m trying to be so transparent and so real about the last two months of my life – but I’m also really scared to do that.’
Tearing up she added: ‘I’ve just been trying to talk, and nothing is coming out, I feel like what I’m saying isn’t making sense and my brain is jumbled and my brain just isn’t my brain anymore. I just don’t feel myself, you know?’
The influencer, on the other hand, said she didn’t need any more time away and was’ready to come back’.
‘It’s what I want more than anything is to bring you guys along, she added, before wondering if she had ‘maybe left it too long’ to film a video following little Bambi’s arrival.
Molly added that she wanted to share a bit about her first two months as a mother before returning to vlogging, stating that parenthood had ‘came easy’ to her.
‘I don’t want to sound big-headed, but I think I’m a really good mum, and I think it has come so naturally to me to become Bambi’s mum – I am good at it and I’m proud of the mum I am to her.’
The influencer also stated that putting her new kid first was a “dream” rather than a “challenge,” but that being a mother has its challenges.
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‘I would say that becoming a mum is the best thing that’s ever happened to me, but it’s also the hardest thing that’s happened to me – like, wholeheartedly, I have found it really, really hard.
‘The one word to describe the last two months would be ‘overwhelming’, I have been so overwhelmed, like every single day. You almost can’t believe the 360 that your life has taken.’
Speaking on the difficulties of parenting alone when husband Tommy Fury was overseas in Saudi Arabia for his boxing battle against Jake Paul, Molly claimed the day he returned home was ‘nearly better than the day Bambi was born’ since she knew their ‘adventure as a family hadn’t started yet’ until then.
The new mother also admits to feeling’slightly traumatised’ by her first few weeks as a parent and having to do so without Tommy.
Her first week at home she described as the “craziest” of her life, while also admitting that she was “really, really unwell” for the first five days and nights.
Touching on the ‘severe constipation’ she battled too, Molly added: ‘The constipation I experienced in my first week was actually harder than my labour. I know that sounds crazy.’
She explained: ‘I was actually at one point in the shower with Zoe [Molly’s sister] stood outside, and I was crouching down in the shower that constipated that I was screaming for her to call me an ambulance.’
‘It had been probably about nine days and I hadn’t been for a poo, and the feeling was taking over my whole body and I was literally going green, and I physically couldn’t [go]. From the vaginal birth I had, I was so messed up down there in that region. I had lost all ability down there to push,’ she added.
‘I’m sure my other mums watching this video right now will hopefully be able to relate and understand maybe why I am a state and maybe why this hadn’t gone to plan today, and why it’s just the most overwhelming subject to talk about because you genuinely do have that many feelings and that many emotions and that many things to talk about that it’s like, where do I even begin?’
Molly just spent her first Mother’s Day as a parent, and she discovered a whole room in their home adorned from floor to ceiling with balloons and images.
She was also surprised with vase after vase of roses and a large placard that read: ‘Happy Mother’s Day Mama’ – fairly remarkable work for a newborn infant.