Kate Ferdinand admitted that her stepchildren overheard her crying, saying her emotions have been at an ‘all time high’ following the arrival of her son.
The 29-year-old gave birth to her first child, Cree, with Rio Ferdinand last month, and has been open with her followers about the difficulties she was experiencing.
In a candid Instagram post, the former Towie star shared a handwritten note from her stepdaughter Tia which read: ‘Pls stop crying I love u.’
Kate wrote: ‘Just when I thought the screaming baby would drown out the sound of my tears, I get this through the door ? as if I wasn’t emotional enough ?❤️
‘To new mums, mums, step mums … and anyone who is struggling in lockdown, I feel you! Sometimes we just need to sneak in our room and have a little cry … even then, because of lockdown, we may have lots of little ears ?? listening in.’
The star then opened up about how tough she was finding parenting a newborn during lockdown.
She wrote: ‘A mix of the new baby, lockdown, kids at home and lack of sleep have well and truly got me. I feel like I’m a robot going through the same routine daily, feed baby, wind baby, wait for him to wake and repeat.
‘Don’t get me wrong I am blessed to live the life I do; a husband, 4 beautiful kids, 2 dogs (1 that’s still protesting because of baby?!!) … some moments I’m feeling amazing and full of love, but I’m too often left feeling low, like I can’t escape. I’m not sure if this is the after effects of a emergency c section, or the stress of another lockdown – maybe it’s even a mix of both.
‘I feel so lucky to have just welcomed a beautiful baby boy into the world, some people never get to experience this amazing feeling, but my emotions and anxiety are at an all time high … all my coping mechanisms I’ve learnt over the years to keep my anxiety at bay I can’t utilise. A workout, a long walk, some alone time.
‘Everything passes, and I know too this soon shall pass, I’m just in it right now.’
Kate continued: ‘This is all new to me as I never normally talk openly with how I’m feeling on here in the present, I always open up when I’m feeling better or it leaves me feeling really vulnerable…. but your messages made me feel so much better last time and not alone.
‘Now I feel I have a duty to show you the real not so perfect me…. here I am sharing how I’m feeling for anyone else feeling the same, I hope how I’m feeling can give you some comfort that you are also not alone. Lots of love.’
Kate was praised for being so open about her struggles, with Fearne Cotton commenting: ‘Powerful, important message Kate. None of us should be breezing through this. It’s a big daily challenge. Thank you for sharing. So much love to you.’
Towie’s Danielle Armstrong wrote: ‘A post that so many of us can relate to ???? You can only do your best and that’s more then enough’, while Kate’s husband Rio, 42, left a heart emoji.
Kate had a traumatic birth with Cree after having to get an emergency C-section, and previously said she was ‘wiped out’.
After marrying football legend Rio in 2019, Kate became stepmother to Lorenz, 14, Tate, 12 and nine-year-old Tia’s, Rio’s children with his late wife Rebecca Ellison, who died in 2015.
Credit: Original article published here.