Joey Essex opens up on his mum’s death to suicide in Grief and Me (Picture: BBC/Objective Media)
Joey Essex has opened up on the impact of losing his mother to suicide has had on his relationships during the upcoming BBC Three documentary, Grief and Me.
The former Towie star, 30, has turned to therapy to help with his grief after his mum Tina took her own life while battling depression when he was 10 years old.
In his upcoming documentary set to air next month, according to The Sun, Joey is in tears as he explains how the death of his mother continues to shape his adult life, fearing girlfriends will leave him just as he felt his mother did.
‘My mum loved me, but she left me. I just think to myself, “If she loved me that much, why would she leave me?” he asked in the documentary.
‘I’ve had loads of relationships but I always end up pushing them away.
‘Imagine if I was with someone and I had kids with them and I really did love that person and then she left me; I wouldn’t know what to do.
Joey’s mum Tina took her own life when he was 10 (Picture: Instagram)
Joey split from girlfriend Brenda Santos last year (Picture: INSTAGRAM /@joey essex)
‘I’m already thinking we’re going to break up before we’re together. I’m pushing it away.’
Joey added that he doesn’t want a partner to ‘to go through what I’ve been through’ but his still hopeful he can find love again.
Joey was previously engaged to his Towie co-star Sam Faiers and since his first appearance in the ITV2 series has been romantically involved with the likes of Amber Turner, The Hills star Stephanie Pratt and his fellow islander on I’m A Celebrity… Get Me Out of Here!, Amy Willerton.
He split from Brazilian model Brenda Santos last year after meeting on MTV’s Ex On The Beach.
Joey Essex: Grief and Me will be available on BBC iPlayer from 6am on June 3 and air on BBC One at 9pm.