The Repair Shop’s Jay Blades parked his car in a retail park and slept in it for one week after considering suicide seven years ago.
The presenter joined Phillip Schofield and Rochelle Humes on Thursday’s This Morning where he recalled he ‘couldn’t see himself in tomorrow’ after the breakdown of his marriage and his charity failing.
‘Seven years ago, everything flopped for me; the charity that I was running, my marriage I was in,’ Jay told the show. ‘I basically got in the car and just drove.
‘For me, I couldn’t see myself in tomorrow, so I was looking for a bridge to drive into.
‘But my naivety, as I’m driving up the motorway, every bridge had a barrier. So, I’m driving up, and I’m like, “okay, next bridge, okay the next bridge”, and it didn’t happen.’
Jay continued: ‘Eventually, the car started flashing like the petrol light came on and I turned off and I remember going to a retail park and I stayed there for a whole week in the car just sitting there.
‘Night and day came and I just wasn’t existing in that particular life and I couldn’t see myself in tomorrow.’
Phil stressed that things do get better while celebrating Jay’s accomplishments that followed his period of depression.
‘If you are in that place and it gets that dark, thank God the bridges had barriers down because looking at yourself now you are in an entirely different place,’ he said.
Jay agreed. ‘It does get better. For me, one of the biggest things was growing up in Hackney you didn’t show your vulnerability, you became a victim if you did that.’
He went on to add that a massive turning point was when he cried in front of another man for the first time. ‘I actually showed my vulnerability, and I asked for help and I received and I was sent on this upward spiral. It’s almost as though I’ve been born again.’
Since that period, Jay’s career has gone from strength to strength, having joined the BBC’s The Repair Shop when it launched in 2017.
Earlier this month, he was made an MBE at Windsor Castle for services to craft and in recognition of his work promoting heritage craft and restoration in the UK.
This Morning airs weekdays at 10am on ITV.